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Big Tits, Bad Skin

 

Hi, my name is T.Bull and I have horrible skin.

There I said it! Few I feel like such a weight has been lifted off.

Only it hasn’t. I’m a twenty year old, who spent years praying for their teenage years to be over because, after all, having bad spotty skin is something that you grow out of once you are an adult.

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Shia LaBeouf rocking the paper bag look

 

Yet, I still need to take a page out of Shia’s book.

I am five foot eight, I have a small-ish waistline, big hips and huge tits. I am quite happy with my body (bar some specific bits, because I am still a girl) and anything I’m not happy with I’m getting off my arse to go to the gym and fix. Logically speaking, society tells me I have an okay body. I’m happy with my body, I’m not overweight, I went through a traditional period of hating my body that has done long-term damage to my body that I will be working on fixing for years and I am normally fairly confident.

Cardio? You mean lifting heavy weights faster right?

Cardio? You mean lifting heavy weights faster right?

However, when you move above my chest my face can be either one of two ways. Normal with a few small blemishes (a red dot on my nose, some scars from my youth that are barely noticeable and a couple of spots covered by my hairline) to a full on red, greasy, nasty horrible mess. Now, from here it’s only understandable that as a result sometimes I look people in the eye and feel confident, and sometimes I need copious amounts of makeup and a bag, there is no inbetween for me and my issues with my skin have really got in the way of my life.

Now before you all message the site saying that this works and that works, I can bet you, if it has been written anywhere, or has been found anywhere on the internet, I will have tried it. I will have tried all the products, all the natural remedies, all the eating hacks, and I have seen no improvement. The only thing I have seen improvements in is within a supplement that was bought for me as a gift, and that I try to use sparingly when I most need it. My confidence whenever I face a bad skin day plummets and there have definitely been points in my life where it has really affected me.

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Prime example, a girl in my third year art class going around our group of four desks and complimenting the two other people in our four on normal things, and then turning to me and saying that I have ‘really nice spots’. I took the next week off school because I felt so awful about going in due to my horrid skin.

 

Having horrid skin isn’t even something I mention in girl chat. Like when others criticise themselves, I don’t like drawing attention to the fact that I have bad skin because why would I draw others attention to something that I severely dislike in myself? This is a cycle that I get stuck in  because I know that I’m not a ten on the attractive scale and no one will ever say that much (unless you’re my other half or Mum in which case you’re biased so stahhhp). However, when my skin is clearer I feel more confident as a result about feeling good in my skin and this is what everyone does with their flaws and insecurities. When they are less noticeable they are confident, when they can be seen, despite people not bringing them up or not even looking at those bad parts, they feel less confident.

I came to a realisation the other day that I can try every remedy under the sun, I can do everything right and yet no one is going to care whether or not my skin drastically improves. That girl in third year art meant nothing to me. We were seated next to each other and she was an incredibly vain and shallow person. If I am actively trying to change something, and I am a nice person, people won’t care what I look like. I have everything I need, friends, family, an other half, nice eyes, big tits and an okay body so I should still be confident despite what my face is doing. However, I’m a realist and know that thinking this is easier that doing it, so I guess until I find my cure, I’ll just be content to have big tits, and bad skin.

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